The Soul of the Day
Yom Kippur, the holiest day of the year, is the day of atonement, a day on which we are purified of our past mistaken deeds and attitudes, as the Torah tells us:
For on this day He shall effect atonement for you to cleanse you. Before the Lord, you shall be cleansed from all your sins. [1]
What exactly happens on Yom Kippur, and how does the cleansing come about? Is it something that we have to create or does it come from above?
On the surface Yom Kippur seems to be a grim day. A day of confession. A day on which we face our mistakes, shortcomings, and faults and try to correct them. Yet, to focus only on sin and its correction is to miss the soul of Yom Kippur.
There are many layers to a relationship between a child and a parent. On one level the parent works hard to educate the child, to instill wisdom and compassion into the heart and mind of the child. The parent invests tremendous effort to teach the child to master skills that will eventually enable him to become an independent, healthy adult. At times, when the child excels, the parent experiences great pleasure and pride. When the child fails, when the child rejects that which he knows to be good and does something that is hurtful to the parent, the parent is pained. This is the layer of the relationship that is measured according to the effort and accomplishment of the child. At this layer, when the child makes the right choice he will receive allowance money, and when the child breaks the rules he will be deprived of the privileges reserved for those who play by the rules.
There is, however, a deeper layer to the relationship.
There is a place in the heart of both parent and child where the bond is unconditional, where the connection is unbreakable. There is a place in the heart of the parent that will love the child no matter what the child will do or say.
The soul of Yom Kippur is the celebration of the unconditional bond between G-d and the Jewish soul. The soul of Yom Kippur is discovering our essence. The place within ourselves where the connection to G-d and to holiness is unbreakable.
On Yom Kippur while we have to correct our past mistakes, while we have to work to heal the pain we caused, we understand that the mistakes and their correction do not define our relationship with G-d.
The Kabbalists teach that there are five levels of the soul. The first three correspond to conscious thoughts, feelings and actions. The fourth corresponds to will and desire, and the fifth, called Yechidah, the singular, is the essence of the soul which is always connected to the one G-d. Yom Kippur is the only day of the year on which we pray five prayers corresponding to the five levels of the soul. Through prayer, reflection and fasting we come to realize that the challenges, failings and disappointments of the past year do not define us. We discover that our true essence is a part of G-d, one with holiness and always wholesome.
The soul of Yom Kippur is the recognition that we are our soul. The soul of Yom Kippur is the child and parent realizing that despite the pain and hurt, they have an unbreakable connection. On Yom Kippur we recognize that the bond between us and and our father in heaven is unconditional.
The soul of Yom Kippur is a celebration. It is a day when the deepest dimension of our connection to G-d is expressed. It is a celebration of the recognition that our connection to G-d is unconditional, our bond unbreakable, our relationship intrinsic.
[1] Leviticus 16:30.